Making a difference

I think everyone makes a difference, some more than others. Some brighten everyone's day, finding hidden beauty in everyone. Others suck the life out of everyone the minute they enter the room. The rest of us are in the middle somewhere.

I feel God working in my life these days. I long to be in His word, to take comfort in Him. I listen to music that sings His praises in the car and during free time at school. I seem to be saying what I'm doing, but I really mean to show what He's doing in me.

When, without any premeditation, I gave up Facebook for Lent and said I'd pray or read my bible instead of hopping on Facebook all the time. I also lightly resolved to try not to swear, knowing I'd slip up on that one. However, maybe a few words slipped at first, but now I don't even have to fight, it doesn't occur to me or tempt me to swear.

Two weeks ago, I decided to go back to the basics, so to speak, "detoxing" and getting rid of my food addictions, as well as caffeine. I've had 2 caffeinated beverages so far, as well as only a few sweets. Before, it was honestly several sweets per day, and never a day went by without one. I also love exercising again- I have more energy.

It's just funny they always say you shouldn't embark on more than one big change or try to break more than one habit at once. Here's the thing: when you let God take more control of your life and let Him meet your needs, you start letting go of the world naturally. Trying to give up vices by sheer will power is either temporary at best or quickly replaced with another, leaving us feeling like a failure and even more empty than before. We have this need deep down that only God can fill. When we try to fill the void with anything else, we feel unfulfilled and out of control.

So, I feel like God just grabbed my attention with the Facebook thing and from there, my life has just gotten richer because of it. So, am I making a difference in this world? I don't have to worry about that. What a relief! I just have to let go and give Him the reins, and He will do it, using me as much as I yield and allow.