Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Excitement/hesitance

Live in the present.

I don't worry about things as much as some, but sometimes I'm so busy with life's details that when the day is over, I sometimes feel like I forgot to "live" it.

I've been enjoying my time with Hannah, but to some extent have been so busy preparing for my absence that I miss her. Or maybe it's just thinking about how, other than the trip to camp, I won't see her for 3 weeks. I have spent even less time with Jeff.

I look forward to seeing my dear AP friends and enjoying Cincinnati. I also look forward to learning about the new IB exam and spending time in Montezuma- hiking, the hot springs, the castle...

Yet, no matter how enjoyable the future may be, all I have is this moment. If I cannot enjoy this moment, I won't be able to enjoy the future either. Furthermore, I can't be who God has called me to be unless I live in the moment, open to connect unexpectedly with whom God puts in my path.

Good thing I have this all figured out, ha ha! They say knowing is half the battle, but I think it's more like 20%...

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