It has been such a long time since I've blogged! I was never very regular about it, but I'm going to try. It certainly isn't as though I need one more thing, ha ha! I'm hoping this will be the start of a deeper dependence on God.
Finishing this year and looking forward to next school year is very stressful right now. I feel worn out and even heartbroken about the loss of a dear colleague (yet happy for her!) and the mistreatment of another. I have some difficult decisions to make for next year. I am not sure how I will be able to handle teaching 6 classes, especially with 36 IB kids when this year, having 24 is killing me off. I have help with Spanish Club and Sociedad Honoraria Hispanica (SHH) this year, but next year I will not. I currently get to school around 6am every day and almost never leave before 5 or 5:30, not to mention all the time on the weekend I spend working. What will next year be like? I'm starting to think my lack of energy since all this menopause business has less to do with hormones and more to do with my working myself to death. I feel like I owe it to my family to drop Spanish Club and SHH, but no one else will do them and the kids will pay the price. Yet the administration must know that even the most devoted teachers are capable of only so much and something has got to give.
Even as I write this, I feel petty and selfish in the wake of the terrible earthquake and tsunami in Japan, absolutely devastating. They are even expecting another, though the damages and losses are, well, devastating.
The passage that has been my mantra all day Friday and this weekend is Isaiah 40, especially verses 28-31, which I include here:
28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
What an encouragement! He is so awesome, no one compares - yet He cares for us and lifts us up. Thank you, Father!
For lent (even though I'm not Catholic!), I gave up Facebook in an attempt to depend more on Jesus to fulfill me instead of other more superficial things.
To end on a lovely note, I was so encouraged to hear that Danielle has been dating a Christian who has brought her to Christ! I get all choked up just thinking about it. Praise God!
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